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February 2010



2.09.10 -


Dreaming between the lines of of cultured life! 

Life is not a pattern, belief, person, place or thing. It's a state of being from within that nothing can touch except your own awareness. Once touched, your life is never the same, because authenticity doesn't repeat itself, it doesn't need to as its always creating itself for the sake of pure joy.

Love is all there is...

If you don't spend the time to touch the depth within, you will never know self-acceptance, self-worth, self-love, or self-respect, for these do not exist outside of oneself; Ever. Nothing external to you matters in these aspects of one's Being. If you think it does, then eventually at some point in time, you will come... to realize thinking is the problem.

Time is of no relevance in this matter.


2.28.10 -

I've spent a lot of time contemplating reincarnation, ever since I began to remember past lives in lucid dreams. Awareness continues to bubble into existence with the help of meditation, past life regression work, body work, shamanic journeying, and psychedelics. Osho, a Zen master who has since moved on said this about past lives:

"The hands of existence form the shape of the female genitals, the opening of the cosmic mother. Revealed within are many images, faces from other times. While it might be entertaining to fantasize about famous past lives, it is just a distraction. the real point is to see and understand the karmic patterns of our lives, and their roots in an endless repetitive cycle that traps us in unconscious behavior.
The two rainbow lizards on either side represent knowing and not-knowing. they are the guardians of the unconscious, making sure that we are prepared for a vision that might otherwise be shattering. A glimpse into the eternity of our existence is a gift, and understanding the function of karma in our lives is not something that can be grasped at will. This is a wake up call; the events in your life are trying to show you a pattern as ancient as the journey of your own soul.

The child can become conscious only if in his life he has meditated enough, has created enough meditative energy to fight with the darkness that death brings. One simply is lost in an oblivion and then suddenly finds a new womb and forgets completely about the old body. There is a discontinuity. This darkness, this unconsciousness creates the discontinuity.
The East has been working hard to penetrate these barriers. And ten thousand years' work has not been in vain. Everybody can penetrate to the past life or many past lives. But for that you have to go deeper into you meditation, for two reasons; unless you go deeper, you cannot find he door to another life; Secondly, you have to go deeper in mediation because, if you find the door of another life, a flood of events will come into the mind. It is hard enough even to carry one life ..."

Anyway, my ongoing deepening inner journey leaves me with answers and yet more questions, as it should be. Being open, allowing, letting go of what one knows and expanding into the effortlessness of being receptive to who we are, what we are. I have had inner openings like ocean waters pouring in with thousands of voices rushing in, realizing it was past lives in Asia. Recently I was talking to a friend who is troubled by some aspects that seek expression from within, and I spoke to him about past lives. The next day I was doing some cleaning up around my apartment in the silence interacting with spirit about reincarnation, more like a telepathic connection. And this awareness flooded me pointing to partitioning, a term used in computers, where one can partition a hard drive to run various different OS operating systems on the same computer.

One of the problems of trying to understand reincarnation, is the beliefs we have AND attachment to the body as who we are, which of course is really untrue, as it does not go with anyone once the depart. I have experienced numerous times of leaving the body and traveling into different spaces/dimensions; some were quite pleasant and others were not so pleasant at all. Basically, higher self incarnates, extends aspects of itself into the organic vehicle called the human body. As the enculturation process unfolds, higher self begins to create a partition, wherein one can download cultural software and store the beliefs and patterns essential for survival mode. Eventually the incarnated partition loses touch with the higher partition. 

It's interesting to note that when you partition a computer hard drive, their is a main partition that controls all the other partitions. Seeing the lesser self as a psychic partition makes sense when the partition is removed and the lesser self reunites with the higher self. When you remove a partition on a computer it becomes one hard drive again. In reality what are is psychic beings, energetic beings with creative power and energetic bodies that can move through inner universes. The challenge is getting past the limiting box of thought parameters dictated to us by culture. One can look back through history and find examples of those who were utterly convinced that certain things were impossible or ridiculous, and then eventually someone found a way and birthed it into the box of cultural parameters.

Probably doesn't mean much to the many, but it solves something that I have been trying to work out with what spirit has been showing me and its important to share it with those who have the willingness to move beyond the walls that imprison one's spirit. The idea is not to see yourself as some computer, but an aspect of consciousness that has formed itself into the parameters within an organic living conscious organism to incarnate separately and independently from higher self, of which you are still part of in the bigger picture. Eventually we are guided by this higher self to become self aware that there is more to what we are than this limited cultural version of self. We truly are not alone in this journey, though it may seem that way. If one takes the time to step out of the hurricane of the ego mind of thought and into the center of themselves, they enter into their Being for guidance on how to navigate the challenges of the incarnation; of life; their life.



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