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November 2007



11-05-07 -

Here are several articles worth reading:

"The Human Tool Box" & "Paradoxes Worth Considering":

November forecast: 


11-22-07 -

I received this email from a woman I met recently. I watched the video link, which is about GMO's, and it was extremely informative. It's important to understand that the foods you eat are critical to your health and well-being, not to mention your consciousness. Our job as consumers is to not be fooled into submission by corporate greed, which looks for the cheapest route towards making a profit. Even if it means bribery or putting their own people into the FDA and USDA to write policy and standards. This video is disturbing in its implications, but as he points out, it is our jobs as consumers to wield our power through our purchasing power by being informed and purchasing only those products that are reliably tested and conform to organic standards. Nature has been in existence since the beginning of time throughout the vastness of the Universe. Nature has been creating itself organically via a direct connection to the divine in order to unfold in ways that are in harmony for all concerned. It is humans in their unconsciousness who try to find short cuts for the sake of greed and power over. Humans cannot create anything comparable to Nature until they extricate themselves from the illusion of ego.

Here is Ingrid's email:

Decades ago, I said that survival of the fittest would no longer be a question of brawn but consciousness.  Recently, a colleague told me about the work of Jeffrey Smith and then Dr. Mercola posted a video:

For those who are impatient or who have trouble loading the one-hour lecture, there is a summary:

Even for the initiated or semi-initiated, there is new "food for thought" and sorry for the pun, but I couldn't resist.

The speaker is outspoken about the corruption at the highest levels of corporate and government oversight, but the course of action he proposes is modest and consistent with what I believe:  your power is in your wallet so the consumption choices you make will eventually be felt even if those with power appear to be deaf and blind to public opinion (and shall we add outcry?)

Many blessings,



I have been going through a lot of inner changes, waking up to aspects of myself that are outdated patterns and beliefs. I have been opening up via dream time to remembrances of past lives that have been affecting this current life time. I've been doing reconnective therapy with Lena from I have realized that I am not this body and I am not my gender. What Sherman has been in this life time is a lot of beliefs that were taught to him via cultural software that was downloaded from parents and family. It has been learned from observation and by force. Education in schools and churches has also played a big role in dominating any inner knowingness. If there was the slightest inclination away from conforming to cultural roles and rules, then I was often met with hostility, intimidation, coercion, manipulation, shame and guilt tactics, and often with violence in varied forms. I am not the clothes I wear or the material goods I have, nor am I the ongoing fear thoughts that have been the guiding principles of most of my life.

The more I pay attention to what goes on within what society calls the mind, the more I realize that the mind is but a reflection of inner space, which is much like outer space that we identify with when we look up at the stars in the night sky. This inner space is inhabited with many dimensions and beings. One should be aware of these nuances of thought that occur within. One can learn to discern between what is spirit and what is not. I have learned that much of the inner negative impulses are actually not mine. I have been working at letting go of identifying with them, because at some point in this inner investigation, one realizes that most of them are false, misleading, and induce fear. This last one is the telling point, because one can either be in love or fear. One cannot be in both and be sane. Fear is insanity; love is sanity. Love is our natural authentic being and it requires no fear. Once one realizes for themselves that they are love itself at their core and are eternal, then there is no longer any need to identify with this fear intrusion on the inner mental plane.

We are telepathic beings and have access to an entire universe within to make contact with. If this seems absurd, then wonder about those biblical figures like Moses or others, who had direct contact with "GOD." There connection was telepathic, some call this channeling, but none the less, it was an inner connection. What is important to realize is the quality of this inner connection. Telepathy works in such a way that knowingness arises. Sometimes there are voices, but in general inner communication arises. The old saying that somehow I just knew is an example of this and intuition is another example of this process in action. Again, it is important to understand the quality of what is coming through. I am reposting a list of these qualities; as well as this link

I've been reading Eckhart Tolle's, "A New Earth," and I highly recommend it for getting clarity on how the ego mechanism works and how to extricate oneself from it. I have been having some wonderful openings internally as I become aware at different levels of how my own ego operates at times. I am also gaining more clarity about past and present situations, as well as an understanding of the current state of affairs in the world at all levels. Let go of resentment, hatred, jealousy, anger, violence, greed, and the need to be right. They are all a product of ego...

I haven't been posting much due to painting a lot more, writing, hiking, doing body work, and inner work. I hope to get most of my current artwork posted here shortly. Please note any updates to the website in the What's New section. I hope this finds you well and in good spirits.

Count your blessings and give gratitude for what you currently have.


11-23-07 -

Here are some excerpts from "A New Earth," by Eckhart Tolle:

'Beyond the realm of simple and verifiable facts, the certainty that "I am right and you are wrong" is a dangerous thing in personal relationships as well as in interactions between nations, tribes, religions, and so on.'

'The history of Christianity is, of course, a prime example of how the belief that you are in sole possession of the truth, that is to say, right, can corrupt your actions and behavior to the point of insanity. For centuries, torturing and burning people alive if their opinion diverged even in the slightest from Church doctrine or narrow interpretations of scripture (the "Truth") was considered right because the victims were "wrong." They were so wrong that they needed to be killed. The Truth was considered more important than human life. And was the Truth? A story you had to believe in; which means, a bundle of thoughts.'

'The Catholic and other churches are actually correct when they identify relativism, the belief that there is no absolute truth to guide human behavior, as one of the evils of our times; but you won't find absolute truth if you look for it where it cannot be found: in doctrines, ideologies, sets of rules, or stories. What do all of these have in common? They are made up of thoughts. Thoughts can at best point to the truth, but it never is the truth. That's why Buddhists say "The finger pointing to the moon is not the moon." All religions are equally false and equally true, depending on how you use them. You can use them in the service of the ego, or you can use them n the service of the Truth. If you believe only your religion is the Truth, you are using in in the service of the ego. Used in such a way, religion becomes ideology and creates and illusory sense of superiority as well as division and conflict between people. In the service of the Truth, religious teachings represent signposts or maps left behind by awakened humans to assist you in spiritual awakenings, that is to say, in becoming free of identification with form.'

'On a collective level, the mind-set "We are right and they are wrong" is particularly deeply entrenched in those parts of the world where conflict between two nations, races, tribes, religions, or ideologies is long-standing, extreme, and endemic.'

'Here it becomes obvious that the human ego in its collective aspect as "us" against "them" is even more insane than the "me," the individual ego, although the mechanism is the same. By far the greater part of violence that humans have inflicted on each other is not the work of criminals or the mentally deranged, but of normal, respectable citizens in the service of the collective ego. One can go so far as to say that on this planet "normal" equals insane. What is it that lies at the root of this insanity? complete identification with thought and emotion, that is to say, ego.'

'Greed, selfishness, exploitation, cruelty, and violence are still all-pervasive on this planet. When you don't recognize them as individual and collective manifestations of an underlying dysfunction or mental illness, you fall unto the error of personalizing them. You construct a conceptual identity for and individual or group and say: "This is who he is. This is who they are. When you confuse the ego that you perceive in others with their identity, it is the work of your own ego that uses this misperception to strengthen itself through being right and therefore superior, and through reacting with condemnation, indignation, and often anger against the perceived enemy. All this is enormously satisfying to the ego.'

'The particular egoic patterns that you react to more strongly in others and misperceive as their identity tend to be the same patterns that are also in you, but that you are unable or unwilling to detect within yourself. In that sense, you have much to learn from your enemies. What is it is them that you find most upsetting, most disturbing? Their selfishness? Their greed? Their need for power and control? Their insincerity, dishonesty, propensity to violence, or whatever it may be? Anything that you resent and strongly react to in another is also in you. But it is no more than a form of ego, and as such, it is completely impersonal. It ha nothing to do with who that person is, nor has it anything to do with who you are. Only if you mistake it for what you are can observing it within you be threatening to your sense of self.'

'You want peace. There is no one who does not want peace. Yet there is something else in your that wants the drama, wants the conflict. You may not be able to feel it at this moment. You may have to wait for a situation or even just a thought that triggers a reaction in you: someone accusing you of this or that, not acknowledging you, encroaching on your territory, questioning the way you do things, and argument about money...Can you then feel the enormous surge of force moving through you, the fear, perhaps being masked by anger or hostility? Can you hear your own voice becoming harsh or shrill, or louder and a few octaves lower? Can you be aware of your mind racing to defend its position, justify, attack, blame? In other words, can you awaken at that moment of consciousness? Can you fell that there is something in you that is at war, something that feels threatened and wants to survive at all cost, that needs the drama in order to assert its identity as the victorious character within that theatrical production? Can you fell there is something in you that would rather be right than at peace?'

'When the ego is at war, know that it is no more than an illusion that is fighting to survive. That illusion thinks it is you. It is not easy at first to be there as the witnessing Presence, especially when the ego is in survival mode or some emotional pattern from the past has become activated, but once you have had a state of it, you will grow in Presence, power, and the ego will lost its grip on you. And so a power comes into your life that is far greater than the ego, greater than the mind. All that is required to become free of the ego is to be aware of it, since awareness and ego are incompatible. Awareness is the power that is concealed within the present moment. This is why we may also call it Presence. The ultimate purpose of human existence, which is to say, your purpose, is to bring that power into this world. And this is also why becoming free of the go cannot be made into a goal to be attained at some point in the future. Only Presence can free you of the ego, and you can only be present Now, not yesterday or tomorrow. Only Presence can undo the past in you and thus transform your state of consciousness.'

'Whatever form it takes, the unconscious drive behind ego is to strengthen the image of who I think I am , the phantom self that came into existence when thought--a great blessing as well as a great curse--began to take over and obscured the simple yet profound joy of connectedness with Being, the Source, God. Whatever behavior the ego manifests, the hidden motivating force is always the same: the need to stand out, be special, be in control; the need for power, for attention, for more. And, of course, the need to find a sense of separation, that is to say, the need for opposition, enemies.'

'The ego always wants something form other people or situations. There is always a hidden agenda, always a sense of "not enough yet," of insufficiency and lack that needs to be filled. It uses people and situations to get what it wants, and even when it succeeds, it is never satisfied for long. Often it is thwarted in its aims, and for the most part the gap between "I want" and "what is" becomes a constant source of upset and anguish.'

'Once you realize and accept that all structures (forms) are unstable, even the seemingly solid material ones, peace arises within you. This is because the recognition of the impermanence of all forms awakens you to the dimension of the formless within yourself, that which is beyond death. Jesus called "eternal life.'

'A genuine relationship is one that is not dominated by the ego with its image-making and self-seeking. In a genuine relationship, there is an outward flow of open, alert attention toward the other person in which there is no wanting whatsoever. That alert attention is Presence. It is the prerequisite for any authentic relationship. The ego always either wants something, or if it believes there is nothing to get from the other, it is in a state of utter indifference: It doesn't care about you. And so, the three predominant states of egoic relationships are: wanting, thwarted wanting (anger, resentment, blaming, complaining), and indifference.'

'An ego that wants something from another--and what ego doesn't--will usually play some kind of role to get its "needs" met, be they material gain, a sense of power, superiority, ,or specialness, or some kind of gratification, be it physical or psychological. Usually people are completely unaware of the roles they play. They are those roles. Some roles are subtle; others are blatantly obvious, except to the person playing it. Some roles are designed simply to get attention from others. The ego "thrives on others" on attention, which is after all a form of psychic energy. The ego doesn't know that the source of all energy is within you, so it seeks it outside. It is not the formless attention which is Presence that the ego seeks, but attention in some form, such as recognition, praise, admiration, or just to be noticed in some way, to have its existence acknowledged.'

'The ego does not want an end to its "problems" because they are part of its identity.'

'In the early stages of many so-called romantic relationships, role-playing is quite common in order to attract and keep whoever is perceived by the ego as the one who is going to "make me happy, make me feel special, and fulfill all my needs." "I'll play who you want me to be, and you'll play who I want you to be." That's the unspoken and unconscious agreement. However, role-playing is hard work, and so those roles cannot be sustained indefinitely, especially once you start living together. When those roles slip, what do you see? Unfortunately, in most cases, not yet the true essence of that being, but that which covers up the true essence: the raw ego divested of its roles, with its pain-body, and its thwarted wanting which now turns into anger, most likely directed at the spouse or partner for having failed to remove the underlying fear and sense of lack that is an intrinsic apart of the egoic sense of self.'

'What is commonly called "falling in love" is in most cases an intensification of egoic wanting and needing. You become addicted to another person, or rather to your image of that person. It has nothing to do with true love, which contains no wanting whatsoever.'

'When you are completely identified with a role, you confuse a pattern of behavior with who you are, and you take yourself very seriously. You also automatically assign roles to others that correspond to yours.'

'If you are awake enough, aware enough, to be able to observe how you interact with other people, you may detect subtle changes in your speech, attitude, and behavior depending on the person you are interacting with...You are playing roles. You are not being may find yourself slipping into pre-established social roles...A range of conditioned patterns of behavior come into effect between two human beings that determine the nature of the interaction. Instead of human beings, conceptual mental images are interacting with each other. The most identified people are with their respective roles, the more inauthentic the relationships become.'

'In many cases, happiness is a role people play, and behind the smiling facade, there is a great deal of pain. Depression, breakdowns, and overreactions are common when unhappiness is covered up behind a smiling exterior and brilliant white teeth, when there is denial, sometimes even to one's self, that there is much unhappiness.


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